Yeah, I said it. And it's 11:50pm and I can't sleep cuz I'm writing this stuff in my head and I've gotta get it out.
Being nice sucks. And I'm a Christ-follower. So what's a girl to do?
Sometimes I just wanna let loose and tell 'em what I really think. Call 'em on the mat and tell 'em they're stupid. They're blowing it. They've got everything they could hope for but they're headed toward the precipice at full speed and they just don't care. I hate it that they just don't care. And I wanna call 'em out for taking advantage of people and say that their excuses are bullshit.
There, I said it. Bullshit!
But how do I say that...nicely? How do I say that and still maintain that I love Jesus? Do I blow it all out of my heart by throwing snowballs at trees? Do I put on a sweet-girl smile and gently reveal bits of the truth, kindly, so that I don't offend?
What am I allowed to do Lord? You called the Pharisees dogs? Didn't You? But You didn't sin. And surely You were trying to win them to Yourself? Or is this where tough-love comes in? Where sometimes people don't hear us nice Christians because we don't get in their faces and hold up a mirror. What were "swear words" back in Your day? How did You shock people off the cliff-edge?
I know You loved 'em off. Maybe it hurts tonight cuz I know that some folks just don't care. And maybe never will. But what's my role? Where does love keep her mouth shut and when does she let loose and tell 'em they're full of...
Can calling it for what it is glorify You? Sigh.
Maybe now I can sleep. Anyone out there? Somewhere in the dark? Barely morning.
